I TRY TO BE BETTER

 Hey guys, It’s been a while since my last post.

The small progress that I do is trying to pray consistently without missing my prayers.

I do try to talk to my self with positive thinking.

Yeah I am so glad that I have the best support system, my husband.

It is difficult to consistently sustain but it is what it is. 

Today is the last July in 2023. Almost half of the year have gone, but yeah I still didn’t achieve anything yet but yup slowly but surely.

August will be my most busiest month as my sister in laws getting married. I will be my best version to help them. They are my sister to, not by blood but by relationship. 

Thank you ALLAH for this wonderful family. I love my family in law so much ❤️

 

Hating MYSELF

 I just don’t know where to start, but what I can say is 

I AM TIRED OF THE TOXIC ENVIRONMENT !

8 JULY 2023

I don’t know why but I started to have diarrhea. I don’t think because of wedding thing or anything related because what my husband ate, I ate. I even ask my friend is there’s any one of her family member have it? She said nope and infact they still eating the leftover till Monday.

9 JULY 2023

Still having some, but under control. So I though ohh it’s okay I’m getting better(which is I did not). Before I go to bed I’ve read a massage from my SIL telling me to represent my mom for some course on the Monday. So yeah I am willing to do it either I don’t know why but just go for it.

10 JULY 2023

Waking up take a bath and I puke while bathing and yep I still have diarrhea and still I go to work to put my 100% commitment to my responsibilities given last night before I go to bed. So meanwhile arriving work and keep on going to the toilet to do my business, still attending my unknow course and then when I join it then when I know it is about safety it the factory which suppose to be attending this course is GM or SUPERVISORS but unfortunately both of them take things for granted. When I came back to the office I found out my GM is enjoying his morning doing nothing on his table. More to pretending doing something. 🙄  Supervisor? HAHA always on his MC’s and still getting payed more than me. And me thru out the day? Still stay until 6.40pm to finish my responsibilities while going to the toilet for 9 times on the day ! When i arrived home to get some rest and yup I slept early because or draining of energy thru out the day but my diarrhea take over my nights by me pooing while asleep for 3 times and then receiving a text to go for a fire department course as there’s no one can go. And me struggling my nights pooing while asleep replying that I can’t attend it as still in my diarrhea phase.

11 JULY 2023

No reply from my last night text and then I am so freaking tired and traumatised to sleep because I am afraid of pooing on my bed. I text the team I can’t go to the office as I’m not feeling well. And I thought that okay maybe today I am getting better. And I’m going to the clinic to get medicine unfortunately still I have my diarrhea till next morning.

12 JULY 2023

Today I text again my sil telling that I am not fit to come to work today because I still have mt diarrhea. Guess what she say ? “ seriously? But we have may work to do.” WTF! I am sick not pretending sick ! That job is even not my job dude ! I help not because of my job scope but I help because of empathy. And then she texted me again telling that I AM SUPPOSED TO COVER THE COURSE FOR 3 DAYS ROW ! The course is about safety and health that the person who supposed to join is SUPERVISORS AND GM ! WTF again ! That is why I am fucking tired of all of this bullshits I’ve been thru for 8 years of TOXIC workplace ! Because of some bullshits mouth I felt that I am not worth it to live in this world. One fine day, I hope ALLAH will grant me with the best work place for me to replace all this bullshits thing.

 

COME BACK 2023

 Assalammualaikum, 

Hi ! I feel like I should start back my blogging thing.

SO YEAH ! Fast forward it’s April 2023 ! And it’s Ramadhan Kareem 🫶🏻

It’s good to be back in fasting month as I have so many thing and thoughts thru out my mind.

So let’s Recap first with my life. So yeap it’s the 4th Anniversary with me and my husband and we still to good to be two 🤭 We did celebrate our wedding anniversary at Peneng, Batu Ferringhi. And it was wonderful memories accept for my pms thing on my honeymoon phase 🙄 

I’ll attach our memories together here ❤️

            

            

So this On our Anniversary for 4 years together. ❤️

By the time I’m posting this, it is already Hari Raya guys. *nampak kan I busy 🤭

Then for our February March and April nothing much excited, But in May there’s gonna be so many thing to story guysss.

But yeah I’llpost on the next posting for May. ❤️

Let’s Start Over

 Hello peeps,

It’s been a while I haven’t update much on my blog, but now I think I would be more on writing on this blog.

I am so disappointed with few people who is selfish in their life without thinking about others and the consequences. 

From this point of view, somehow I think Allah was giving me the hint that this is the type of people I’m dealing with. But truly I just felt like wanna scream to the person who don’t even care to follow the SOP. It’s definitely SELFISH! 

It’s tiring to educate some people who are selfish. So what should I do ? Being silent ? Let it be? I am so confuse.

I just hope they think wisely to make decision! Don’t effect others life !

Much love,

D ❤️

An Unplaned Post :p

 Hi peeps !

It's almost 2 years of marriage haha but my Hubby and me still have no children haha its okay its all in Allah will :)

Okay I just wanted to tell a story about my EX.

Actually this is the only place that I thnik I won't be judge by anyone.

Okay cerita dia macam ni, I sebenarnya terkejut sebab one of my ex ni dah kawin tau and his wife added me on Facebook, I sumpah tak sedar tau I approve. Okay the story happen when his wife posted a picture of her yang baru lepas bersalin, lepas tu i pun tengok la baby girl tu sangat comel ! Lepas tu I buka la profile dia, nak tengok siapa ni eh? I kenal ke? Asal boleh friend dekat FB eh? 

Then terjadi la I pi buka FB that girl. Lepas tu terus I terkejut sebab yup ni wife my EX. Okay a short story pasal my EX ni, dia ni sumpah baik gila. One of my ex yang baik la. Then kitaorg couple masa sekolah, dia form 5 I time tu form 2 ke form 3 macam tu. Lepas tu I ni dulu memang nakal la, banyak sangat kawan lelaki la banyak bf la. But I ni couple dgn dia almost 1 year tak silap. Ke lebih eh? Hahahha tak ingat. Dia ni sumpah baik gila, memang sayang I gila gila la. Dia sanggup habis skolah masa tu dia habis keja datang jumpa I dkt skolah haa so lama la gak bercinta. But kitaorg banyak dia atas talian je la.I admit I bodoh sebab dia baik but I tak appreciate dia tau. dapat jantan bad boy semua aku bodoh, setia macam nak mampos padahal semua cam bangang jela, haa gitu. Punya la dia tak boleh lupa kan I, time tu I tengah diploma ke dah habis tak ingat. Dia cari I balik contact I balik. But that time I single dia ada gf(wife dia sekarang). Dia contact I call memalam, but I advice dia tak baik buat macam ni dekat gf tu. Yela cam mainkan perasaan lak en. I pun cakap la jangan macam ni tak baik tau. Walaupun I ni jahat aka nakal la but I tak sanggup lukakan hati girl lain tau. I hormat orang yang dah ada GF ni. Lepas tu I cam nasihat dia la memacam la I cakap. But dia asyik sebut susah nak lupakan I, still sayang I la apa la. I cakap direct je time tu kalau sayang I putus la dengan GF tu. Yela dari kau main kan hati GF tu kan. Pastu dia cakap tak boleh sebab GF dia tu baik. HAA DAH TU YANG KAU CARI AKU KENAPA SETANNNNN. Hahahahhaha

Rupanya dia cam cakap la dia masih susah nak lupakan I. Adoi jem dah time tu. Sampai la I sendiri stop reply all call and msg tau. Sebab I tak nak kang orang cakap I melayan. Then hilang la dia sampai la I tau yang dia dah kawin apa semua dekat whatsapp status. Dia kawin last year. But I kawin dulu la haa gitu. Lepas tu baru I perasan dia block semua media social I. I tau pun after I stalk FB wife dia. semua yang wife dia tag ex I tu I tak boleh access macam nama tu tak wujud la haa gitu. Dia block I rupanya, maybe one of cara dia untuk move on and be with his wife. 

Jap nak tanya la, kenapa la ex I punya gf/wife semua stalk I eh ? Kalau I kan tak kuasa wei nak cari laki I punya ex la apa la. Nanti I yang cemburu I yang sakit hati. Dah 2 EX i tau wife follow I. Yang lain tak tau la en sebab ada yang belum kawin. But harapnya jangan la follow I dah. I tak ada apa apa dah dengan husban korang. Oh EX i yang sorg tu punya wife dah unfollow I. But I okay je dengan husband dia maksudnya kitaorg break secara baik. And dia pun dah ada anak juga. I happy la tengok diaorang boleh move on and ada baby apa semua. Sumpah I happy for them. We are just in our past stories tau, Sebab tu I boleh okay. I even story semua dekat my husband. Supaya dia tak syak wasangka ke apa ke. Sebab husband I ni kuat jealous ye rakan rakan, 🙏

I dulu ramai kawan lelaki and majoriti kawan I pernah ada hati dengan I, I tak tau la apa istimewanya I, Walhal I gemok apa semua ntah ler. 🙊

Apa pun I happy tengok life semua orang. I nak minta maaf dekat orang yang I pernah mainkan hatinya, dulu I ada BIGO I kenal ramai lelaki disitu, Ada yang syok dekat I apa semua, Hurm sian diaorg. Ahhh maafkan la aku ni yang banyak dosa 😭

P/S: AKU SAJA LUAHKAN DEKAT SINI YA SEBAB SINI JE TEMPAT AKU ADA YANG TAK AKAN DIJUDGE YA. TAK NAK BACA TAK YAH BACA. :P

MY LIFE AFTER MARRIAGE

Assalammualaikum,

Hi and hello :)

Its been a long time i have ignore my blog since before i get married till now i am officially married to an amazing guy that im proudly call HUSBAND :)

I get married on 18 January 2019 at 9 P.M .

Alhamdulillah all my journey went well, we both stay at our own palace :)

And yeah Im getting Fat then before.

This is so stressful. I need my old weight back. Now im in a journey to lose my weight.

Wish me luck.

XOXO
Dyaa 𝩍

Makan Hati Berulam Jantung

Hi sorry sebab dah lama tak post anything dalam blog sebab quite busy with life 😅

Okay now iolls nak story pasal hati.

Siapa dekat sini ada masalah hati? Haaa tak ada sorg pun nak mengaku kan? 😜

Tipu la tak de masalah hati, sebab secara logic nya kita semua ni ciptaan Allah memang akan ada masalah hati sebab sentiasa dihasut syaiton nirojim 😆

Okay cara untuk elak masalah hati ni ialah dengan cara istigfar banyak banyak.

Korang jujur la, dah istigfar pun mmg susah nak hilang sebab tak khusyuk pun,

Seriously susah, but in sha Allah bila hati kita jiwa kita ingat Allah, kita boleh kurang kan rasa hati ni.

Now i nak cerita benda simple je.

Korang duduk rumah sewa, dalam rumah sewa ada 5 orang. Then si A ni pun masak lah,

 masak untuk 5 orang then si B keluar without inform sesiapa yang si B belum makan lagi, si B ni sebelum keluar ada tolong si A masak skali, si C & D pun tolong skali, lepas tu si B ni asing kan makanan and makanan tu cukup untuk sorg makan je, lepas tu si E ni baru balik kerja dan makan la separuh then si B ni balik tetiba merajuk sampai tarik muka. Dah la tak fikir ada org lain pun tak makan lagi lepas tu asingkan untuk dia sorg je, pastu bila yang si E tu tak tau si B tak makan lagi terus nak merajuk bagai tarik muka, Si C & D pun tak tau pun si B tak makan lagi. 

So si B ni ada masalah hati tau.

1st dia tak teringat langsung pasal orang lain,  ( SELFISH !)

2nd dia kena la ubah sikap dia yang penting kan diri sendiri,

3rd lain kali bagi tau la belum makan lagi or apa apa untuk elak kan misunderstanding .

That's all.

So masalah hati ni mmg teruk.

Jadi jaga jaga ya 😘

Life Is Unfair

I'm hurt ! Totally broken inside :(

Kenapa dunia ni tak adil?
Kenapa perlu pandang pada harta?

Kecewa, bila orang yang kita jadikan sebagai role model sendiri bagi kita down.
Yes I know, siapa yang tak nak anak hidup senang? Kan?
Kecewa, perlu ke aku pilih pasangan hidup berdasarkan harta ? Perlu ke ?
Aku tak rasa aku perlu buat semua tu.

Aku sendiri buat pilihan hidup aku. Aku memang tak pernah pilih lelaki yang kaya atau apa pun
sebab hidup mengajar aku erti tidak pandang pada semua itu, Tapi bila family kau sndri mcm tak suka kau bercinta dengan lelaki bukan kaya apa kau nak buat?! Walhal family aku bukan kaya mana pun.
:(

Kenapa hidup ni tak adil ?

:(

KISAH ORANG KAKI AMPU

Kau gaji besar,

Kau orang atasan,

Kau berpangkat tinggi,

TAPI

Sayang kau kaki ampu,

Kau kaki kipas,

Kau rendah rendah kan orang lain,

Kau buatkan yang salah jadi betul,

Yang benar jadi salah,

Kau buat ramai hilang sabar dan berhenti kerja,

Kau dan Boss memang pandai ambil hati,

Kau memang hebat,

Boss dengar cakap kau si kaki ampu,

Sampai bila nak menipu?

Sampai semua orang pun dah naik jemu,

Bila sikaki ampu muncul,

Semua jadi tak betul,

bila sikaki ampu datang,

semuanya lintang pukang,

Wahai si Kaki ampu,

memang kau hebat dan memang kau ligat di dunia,

TAPI ingat akhirat bakal menjelma,

Ahh aku tahu kau tak peduli, 

yang kau tahu kau kaya di dunia,

sudah lah malas melayan kau si kaki ampu,

semoga kau cepat cepat keluar dari hidup aku.

5 Days Before 2016

Assalammualaikum,

Hi guys,

How was your 2015 going on ?

It is everything okay ?

For sure everyone have their own story right ?

So do I,

Alright, My 2015 are not that good.

Not a good year for me.

I've gone thru so many heartache, ups and down, pathetic life and so on.

Its hurt to remember everything, yes it kills me slowly,

I just wish I could turn back time and make it right,

But I know I cant.

I regret with what had happen during those years.

I know I've made mistakes.

How stupid I am.

But there's nothing I can do to turn back time.

I have to move on,

Stay on track,

Make 2016 as the best years,

Allah please help me go through this upcoming years with smile and happiness,

I'm going to make my upcoming years with happiness and cheerful moment.

In sha Allah

So guys what are your new wishes for 2016 ?

Please put a target and make sure to achieve it at 2016.

Okay see ya later,

Much Love,

XOXO

sharifahdyana

Its Been A Long Day ♥

Hey there,

Its quite long that i have been quite since my last post.

Nothing much that have change.

Its all about life maybe,

Its okay. Its the process to get older my dear.

I'm busying completing my Diploma. And yes it's my final year and i'm in the middle of my final test. and after that i'm done with Diploma. :)

Of course i will miss my friends here. But whatever it is memories stay in my heart. forever and always.

Just wish me luck on my final test, and will updated more about life :)

Much Love,

sharifahdyana

♥ 

SAHABAT

Sahabat,

Apa yang kau mengerti erti sahabat ?

Susah senang bersama atau hilang selamanya?

Cari bila sunyi, perlu bila sepi,

Ada bila perlu, hilang bila sendu,

Mahu terbaik untuk diri sendri tetapi tidak layan sahabat seperti yang di mahukan,

salah siapa?

salah dia atau salah kita ?

Tepuk dada tanya selera.

Kau atau dia ?

Sahabat setia ?

Atau peneman bila perlu saja.

COME BACK :)

Assalammualaikum,

Apa khabar semua nya ? Sihat sejahtera ? Moga moga begitulah hendak nya :)

Setelah sekian lama menyepi, kini aku kembali. 

Merindui saat saat menjadi blogger yang sangat aktif dan yang kini pasif.

Harap harap masih ada yang mahu meneliti dan menelaah entry blog ini.

Kalau bosan sila lah kemari membaca jika sudi :)

p/s : Next entry akan update lebih lagi pasal dunia :)

♥ Missing In Action ♥

Assalammualaikum,

Hi guys, How are you ? Fine maybe?

Okay lah, dah lama ta updated anything dkt blog ni, agak busy with life yang agak kucar kacir ni,

Okay memandangkan sekarang bulan Ramdhan kita kena lah banyak kan amal ibadat okay sayang sayang ku semua ?

Nothing interesting with my post but here some think I wanna share with you guys,

What would you guys do if first time you met this one guy or girl he/she is just an ordinary person but then you guys get attached with each other day by day, and theeeennnnn suddenly you fall in love with him/her. Ya a few months seems okay, lovely and what so ever, But then SUDDENLY they left you !

I would like to ask, is that we called love? this is not my story, but this thing is based on my lovely sis story.

In my opinion, this is not love, if he/she do love you guys they wont leave aite? So if they do leave and never come back, its not love, they are still not into you, so my advice is dont get to attached with the person we know for a few months. Bak kata org tua tua, biar dia sayang kita lebih, jangan kita syang dia beria tapi dia hampeh je perangai. Kan kawan kawan? Okay lah, thats it for this post. 

Adious, Love ♥

Assalamualaikum,

Bissmillah,

Hi, how's life ? Good enough ? Just say Alhamdulillah.

Wanna know about my life ? There's always something wrong with my life, hurm i just can't go on anymore but then i said to myself that everything happen for a reason. And yes, I have to stay strong. Eventhough I'm not that strong anymore. I've tried so hard to keep my self strong. I just need someone to hug then I wanna cry at their shoulder and tell all my story, hurm I'm tired with all of this. And yes the word for today is

 TIRED !

♡ WILL YOU ? ♡

The only things that every girls in this world waiting for a right guy to get married with,

The right guy will come at the right place at the right time,

And he will bend his knee and said 

"Dear My Love, Will You Marry Me And Be My One And Only Wife That Could Go Through Every Day And Night Standing By My Side?"

And I will say 

"I Do"

♡

♡ The Love That He Lost ♡

♡ H. U. R. T ♡

Assalammualaikum, 

Hi guys, thanks sebab sudi baca nurkilan yang tak seberapa ni (skemanya ayat) HAHA,

Hari ni sangat meletihkan dan memenatkan, tapi cuba juga untuk kuatkan diri pegi kelas,

Pernah tak korang rasa perasaan ni, sayang tapi terluka terseksa, kecewa, sentiasa berduka, hurm bila fikirkan balik kan ni semua dugaan hidup,

Masih sayang tapi bila hati terluka kena la bawa diri sebab dah tak nak kecewa lagi,

Cuba kuat kan diri walaupun memang nak sangat dengar suara dia, sayangkan dia balik, nak get back, tapi disebabkan kecewa yang amat sangat ia membuatkan kita terpaksa megambil keputusan yang akan mengecewakan kita juga, ini semua kerana serik. SERIK untuk terluka lagi. Walaupun jauh sudut hati masih sayang dan cinta,  

♥ Hearts Won't Lie ♥

Assalammualaikum, 

Hi there, thanks for reading my entry,

Do you know how it feels like when you need to be stronger than before ?

Do you know how its feel when you love someone that are not meant for you ?

Do you know what will end up when you try so hard to stay on while your heart bleeds and you still want to stay ?

Do you ever think that you are able to stand still with tears drowning ?

Do you ?

Now let me refresh your thoughts and mind,

You have someone in your heart, At the first day you fall for him/her, You appreciate him/her like there's no tomorrow, And you keep on fighting to get he/she, And than you get them and keep them in your life, and than here starts the journey of two hearts becomes one, and the first few weeks everything goes well, and than its a month still butterflies are everywhere, and here goes the second third forth month...................

Everything gone crazy, first you get jealous than he/she get jealous, arguing about these and that, keep on fighting days night tomorrow the next day and so on, wait let me recall you, what happens to the relationships that gone well few days before you get this anger thing in your head and mind ? What happen to those days ?  Is it meant to be for a moment or what ? Is it just for beginner ? Tell me what happen to those days that you looks so happy and a loving couples, what happen to it ? Okay lets refresh our mind, we can fix this, first of all, sit face to face, talk don't shout, if girls you wanna cry just let it all out, try to fix it, don't run from your problems, try to stay cool, yeah it might hurt, but stay strong, guys please hear before you talk, girls are not that difficult to handle with, try to solve this problems, okay next if you did a good job, you guys going to a journey with butterflies again, but if it don't gone well just start to let go as it still early in the relationship, but for those who are successfully go with the journey you might seeing the same mistakes, so here it goes, give a second chances are okay but after that just let it go if the guy/girl don't know how to appreciate you he/she are not meant to be with you, so let it go, I'm in this situation as well, and I'm trying, 

p/s : for those who have a perfect relationship please appreciate your loves ones.

♥ Sadness ♥

Assalammualaikum,

Hi guys, long time didn't post anything on my blog,

quit busy these days,

I just wanna let you know about my feelings right now,

totally unstable.

Do you know how it feels when you love someone that didn't give you any attention towards you ?

that's how  feel, 

I have been so long waiting for my true love, but yet it never showed up, 

Ya I know, I just need to wait and trust Allah path, 

But I just want to feel happy like the others, I just need the one who will always be there, Love me no matter what, Ya I'm hurting to much now, I've been so patient with all this things, The one thing that been through in my mind is " until when i have to wait" ?

Allah I trust you, I'm sorry for asking to much, Yet I just feel lonely, mom and dad are to busy for gain some money, friends have their life too, why am I so pathetic ?? 

Dear Allah, only you are always there even I have so many sin, You will never give up on me.

But yet i still feel sad, feel like wanna cry all day long, I wish you guys know how i feel, :'(